This Feeling...

I don't like this feeling. It's Friday night and I am hungry. I am out of points, it is cold outside, and I weigh-in tomorrow morning. I don't want to eat because I'm thinking through my dysfunction and it says, "If you eat now, you will not lose tomorrow." I hate this feeling.

I had a crazy, fun day. Our whole office went to our founder's farm. We had a great time being country - walking large fields, driving ATVs, target shooting, playing bocce ball and corn hole. We grilled lunch and just enjoyed being outside on an absolutely perfect Fall day. I ate well and moved a lot. I feel good about the day but I hate the game my mind is playing with me right now.

I want something warm and filling to eat. I'm tired and lonely and hungry and I want someting to eat. Only one of those reasons means I should eat. But what? It's just too much to think about right now....all the fresh air and sun have sapped every ounce of energy. Where is my private chef?